marriage when you are older

internet romances are not something to take lightly. i truthfully would've never thought i would've gotten married through one of the online services, but after i met kevin, i had no other choice.

something about getting married when you are older is quite precious, almost like a rare and beautiful stone. i still laugh about when i turned the corner to go meet my love at the wedding altar and i saw him mouth "wow" when he saw me. i honestly felt as though i was walking on a cloud.. the service was grand, and so true to what we wanted because we wanted the focus to be on God.

and that is what i want to share today. there was a point in the service that the pastor, (who is also one of my dearest friends) prayed that no matter what kevin and i would go through that we would always make our way to God, no matter what ups and downs would come, that we would go to God. at the time that the pastor prayed that both kevin and i felt as though we were the only ones in the sanctuary of the church. almost like we were standing on a plateau before God alone.

and i have to say in all honesty, that is what has happened through every day of our life together, and even continues on to this day.

there is a scripture that states that "God is the same yesterday, today and forevermore." i have been taught that since i was a child, and i am so grateful and proud to be able to tell you that in all the changes that have taken place in this world, and in my life personally, in the lives of those around me, this is the truth that i hang on to.

the days when essentially i was working around the clock to help my husband be comfortable as possible, the days that i was so exhausted beyond belief., the days when there was no human help to be found on this earth, God was the constant. somehow someway He would bring a peace that would hold that love that kevin and i had in His hands and we never lost that.

even on that first night that i realized that the journey kevin and i would travel would not be easy, i knew we would never be alone. for God was there with us, through every trip to the emergency room, for every wound that i would clean, for every tear that i would dry, (both his and mine) we were never alone.

i wish i could explain to young people how precious that marriage can be when it is done right. when it has God's blessing. that it is not always easy, but that it is definitely worth it.

i look now at the moments i had for instance last night, when i wanted to pick up the phone to call kevin, and i remembered he wasn't there, and it is very hard, but i am reminded, God is the same yesterday, today and forevermore, and i know i am not alone.

thank you God for bringing me my beloved kevin.


and thank you kevin for helping me know i will be okay.....


until then.......



sshhhhhhhhh....................