I have basically been shut down other than doing those things that one can do on autopilot. I am still wrestling , almost in a state of shock because of Paula having to deal with this battle of cancer. I still question why sometimes. Why does cancer exist, why do little babies get aborted before they have a chance to even breathe their first breath in this world? Why do politicians spend so much money and time trying to prove to us that they deserve to be in power? Why does power mean so much to people in that mindset? I wish I could even express how frustrating this political season and all those questions that really can't bed answered this side of heaven is to me. I finally decided on this short break here popped a cd in of the HEE HAW gospel quartet, (initially I thought I would be made fun of) but right now it has blessed me more than anything I have had my hands on all day except for my devotional time. I guess perhaps this is a little bit of what I picture heaven to be. I wish I could better express to other people how it is so worth it to know God. Even when you feel like your ship is about to crash into a mountain, God can steady that ship, just with the touch of His hand or the breath in the wind, or by His Almighty word. I know this is one of the hardest times of my life, because I love my family so, I love my sister and brother so much. I know one thing even more, that God loves us all more than I can even comprehend or think of. I long to hold onto that.
Till the day we see Jesus........still trusting....one minute at a time.
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