Now I lay Me Down To Sleep

These are the words I used to say every night before I went to sleep as a little child. Today, with finding out the journey my sister has to take, I would really like to revert back to that again. Childhood. A time of carefree living....not a care in the world. Now two of the people whose lives, if they were pictured in a dictionary would have their picture next to the word energy. are in the process of having their lives turned upside down by two very ugly diseases. One being cystic fibrosis, and the other being cancer. You know in the Psalms it states that God has the very hairs of our heads numbered. (even my coarse old gray hair)...and that makes me believe that God knows every detail, every minute of these two young ladies lives. That does not mean I understand it at all. I sometimes feel as if I am looking through one of those old mirrors, the kind that the mirror looks kind of cloudy after it has aged awhile? I really feel that way, because I wonder sometimes what in the world is going on. I get disturbed by generalized chaos in the world, but I get really thrown, if not offended when life hits too close to home. (that being my immediate family.)

I go back to a time, when one of my very best friends in the whole world brought a song up to me mainly because I receive music well. "when you cannot trust His hand, Trust His heart". Even though I cannot see clearly where all of this journey is heading and rest assured know that the control freak in me doesn't like that, I do know that Jeremiah is true when it says "for I know the plans I have for you, plans for good and not evil". Mainly because I know that God is the only thing that remains the same yesterday , today and forevermore. Funny, I can almost hear Reverend Frazee say that in my mind. I still believe. Not because of anything I have done, but because I know God is God. We hold onto that each breath that we take, each step that we take. He gives us hope for the days ahead.

So again I pray

"Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray Oh Lord my soul do keep. If I should die before I wake, I pray the Lord my soul to take. Please bless my sister, help her sense Your strength replacing her weakness. Help my brother to stay strong, and bless April as well. Be with the girls, and their respective families, Lindsey, William, Kris, Chrissy and the kids." Most of all bless my parents. Bind them together, and help them to know just how much they are loved. This is so new for them God. But you know them, and You shall hold them with your almighty hand." I pray you will help us all to find our rest in You. In your name that stays the most precious name ever spoken. Amen....