I am sitting here amazed at how God works. Even when it hurts.
I have been amazed at me, the girl with the big mouth who says "what do I need a man for," finally getting it after Kev passed. I have been listening a lot to sermons that are talking about marriage, and I have been impressed that God intends for marriage to show us a part of His heart, and His love for us.
The biggest thing I have missed since kev has been gone has been someone to talk to about the big things going on in my life and my heart.
Today it came to me, God is there to talk to about what I think are the big things in my life and my heart. And the amazing part to me, is God is so utterly trustworthy. When people disappoint, and fail you, there is a great big God who is the God of second chances.
Today, it came to me. Gods love is far deeper than what any one man or woman could give to us.
It has been hard. I promised God that I would cling to Him "whatever the cost". And I have lost a lot. But I have to tell you I have gained much much more. More than I could ever write in a simple blog. But I do know that I owe God my everything, because He has daily been there holding me, waiting on me sometimes, and being more patient than I could ever deserve.
Again I owe a debt of gratitude to God for bringing me to a great imperfect husband with a tough love that shows me what Gods love is like. I love that this walk with God is a daily decision, it is not just a "one time thing". and yes it requires TOTAL COMMITTMENT.
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